Mid-Service Crisis
August 12th, 2007My colleges and I have been in Ghana for just over a year. By this time, pretty much all of us volunteers have adjusted to this foreign environment. Perhaps adjusted is not the most appropriate word. We find out what we can tolerate and what we cannot live without. We come to realization what annoys us and formed our different strategies ranging from avoidance to confrontation. We have a better understanding of our roles at our workplaces and finally have an inkling whether the remaining 13 months will consist of using our creativity to work through community issues or hiding in our bungalows to get through the complete works of Shakespeare. The word adjusted almost implies that we live harmoniously with our surrounding but that is certainly not always the case.
It’s easy to spot unhappy volunteers. Those folks show up to all the parties and can be found in sub offices every weekend. There is no better temporary remedy to being miserable at site than to go to volunteer gatherings. The reprieves include the complete empathy from fellow volunteers who face similar frustrations everyday, ample supply of alcohol, and often some innovative culinary concoction that sometimes resembles American food. Fortunately for them there is not a shortage of meetings, house parties, gathering at the beach, and unwarranted visits to the medical unit in Accra. But it also means missing opportunities to form friendships and observe community needs at ones site which perpetuates the discontent. At some point of that downward spiral, some choose to terminate their service early to end the misery.
When we were applying to join Peace Corps, we knew we could be placed in harsh living environment. What we did not expect was that a volunteer could feel unneeded in the community. Unfortunately, more than a few of us feel this way during our service. In theory, volunteers are here to fill in gaps that Peace Corps and host country nationals have identified. The reality is that the authenticity and extent of these gaps are quite difficult to assess by Peace Corps staff. The process is such that requests for volunteers by NGOs and schools are done way in advance of the volunteers’ arrival. Some of the requests are really nothing more than an excuse to get the trophy “white man” to the village. What adds to the frustration is when locals whom we work with are not motivated or when the goals of the NGOs are in conflict of the actual community needs. These volunteers are placed in doomed projects and they do not know the truth until they get to their sites. This is also why it takes a certain type of personality to endure the 27 months of service. Skills like being persistent, not easily discouraged, being resourceful, able to stare at a wall for an extended period of time are all part of the mix required of a volunteer.
Conversations over development work is quite different from conversations over corporate America. It is quite a daunting task having to get to the bottom of the complex issues concerning the livelihoods of 20 million struggling people. And there is a realization that we can only play our tiny parts in the whole web of thousands of development organizations and governmental agencies in this country. The shadow of doubt regarding our effectiveness always looms around the corner since the results of our work are often impossible to measure. Then comes the inevitable question of whether a developing country like Ghana can ever pull out of poverty and into prosperity. Some cite the political stability, the free press, the emphasis on education, the new found stability in currency strength, and the strong survival instinct as indicators that Ghana will do just fine. However we cannot help vocalizing our observations of the lack of planning skills, the widespread laziness and complacency, the expectation of handouts, the outdated education methods, the hidden dishonesty and corruptions, and the tendency to place blame upon failures onto others (often the western world) as telltale signs of the ill-fated fate that this country is sure to be heading.
There are thousands of reasonable excuses a Peace Corps volunteer may use to attribute to failure. No matter the outcome, I know I can get the brotherly pat on the shoulder and hear something like, “You have really tried,” when I am back in the States. For that reason, a few of us get complacent. But for the most part we stay relatively resilient. We know we were all given 821 days to chip at our primary project. If we feel ambitious, we have a lot of freedom to start any secondary projects that we see fit. It is virtually guaranteed that every step mapped out in every project is not going to go strictly according to plan. But that is sort of the excitement as long as the frustration does not get to you. In an environment where positive results are so elusive, all it takes is a few small victories to get us re energized. All things considered, I have to say I am happy. And really, that’s all anybody can ask for.



